This Friday’s #fearless moment comes from college student and blogger, Jaznea. She give a personal look at how her hair change, changed her world.
Fearless. I racked my memory trying to figure out my most fearless moment. Was it when I moved to NYC right after high school, learning how to drive, or maybe even when I tried to start my own blog.
Then it hit me as I was washing my hair.
Two years ago for no reason and with no goal at the end, I cut all my hair off. Family and friends disagreed and still some disagree today. I was ignoring the negative feedback because despite their opinions, I felt beautiful and strangers were attracted to my hair more than ever before. They loved my natural curl as much as I did.
When my hair started to form into an Afro, the looks I received from the closest people to me said it all. They still hated my hair. I come from a family were your hair is your temple and they didn’t quite understand mines, yet.
It did hurt a bit that my family disliked my hair and that they all thought I was a lesbian because I had short hair. Then a very close friend of mines told me she thought my hair was ugly. She did not try to sugarcoat her feelings at all.
After that, I started to reflect on my hair progress for the last two years and the effects it had on my life. Besides the fact I have been single since the haircut and the amount of men that has been attracted to me has dropped. It’s also been harder for me to get a job since the haircut. But could I blame all of that on my hair? I started to believe that my hair was out control and it was slowly ruining my life.
Was straight long hair the only option for me? Why does Solange look so beautiful but I am being told I look ugly? And my biggest question was am I the only natural girl that get this much slack for their hair?
I was afraid that life wouldn’t get better for me until my hair grew back out because it all was still going downhill. I couldn’t believe all of this was happening because of my hair choice. What got me out this funk of mines was a very long look in the mirror.
I realized that I was beautiful and so was my hair. What did it matter if nobody else liked it, I have to live with myself every day. And for jobs I was just applying to the wrong places or coming off wrong since I was already insecure about my hair.
Nobody close to me understands why I cut my hair. It was not for a statement but out of pure laziness. I didn’t want to maintain long hair anymore. Some may call me crazy for my reasoning but I believe, therefore I know, I was FEARLESS for cutting my hair off.
It changed how people looked at me (good and bad), altered my personality, and I’m glad to be a part of the natural movement. It takes a lot of guts to chop off your hair because women base their beauty on their hair length. Women still have short hair but if it’s not the Rihanna cut then they probably have long hair. I have run into so many girls who want to go natural but don’t want to do the “big chop”. I myself have yet to understand why because it’s liberating and a different experience. I mean it will grow back.
Be fearless and shameless. I learned from my haircut to do what makes you happy even if others look at you like your crazy!
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